Party recession

Ahh the sweet whiplash of hard times has reared its ugly head once again in my life. I have not abandoned this blog, instead I spent my time living my life and reflecting on whats important to me at this point of my life. I failed miserably only for some things to be revealed to me about many subjects. The most recurring revelation is that my priorities are skewed, so many things have been taken out of order no longer ranked by importance but y by pleasure. I began to brake away from my true self, and separate from reality only to delve deeper into this alternate life a blur of cigarettes and alcohol.

I am so close to loosing my job and my family and in my willingness to make that sacrifice I don't have any close friends to show for it. I thought that I was spending the time with my friends in order to bond and become closer to people that shared my ideals. I was fooled in face taken advantage of by my inner desires, to be cool, accepted, and part of a community of "so called" friends. When the money ran out and the smoke cleared i was left alone. I think its funny because they where openly taking advantage of me "Your the driver, I'm the dispatcher, and he's the supplier!" Yeah that's all fun but one of those roles cost way more then the other. It wouldn't be fare to blame them its not there fault, don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having fun.

Problem is I am far to intelligent to squander my life in some attempt to be cool. It is essentially a shit load of keeping up with the Joneses, problem is the Joneses are broke and so am I.

New Shoes

Today shopping at Urban I was poking around in the sale section and I found gold. Red Flannel pointed tennis shoes for 10 dollars made by rubber duck, later after looking up the brand I found that 100% of their profits go to charities around the world. So as we go out after X-mas and spend up all that hard earned gift money from your grandparents like I will try to be concise of what your buying. Buy a little to give allot fuck Christmas and happy family torture.

Alright still

Gracing the cover of NYLON's December January issue this month a truly made over Lily Alen.
I have to say I wondered where she went and suddenly she reappeared just as I had started to wonder what was up. I read the article and it was basically her going off on tangents about the past year the subject ranging from her miscarriage, a new apartment, and her cynical out look on the industry she is in.

I think that dear Lily is simply one of us amongst one of them, candid, fragile, and most of all capable. With songs like every one's at it and knock em out its evident that she is not trying to put up a front for any one as being any thing but a her self.

Perfection Doesnt Exist

Today as I reflected on my tumultuous childhood I remembered that I used to think that people I saw on T.V. where perfect and that aside from being beautiful they had parents that kept them out of harms way . People on T.V. never got hurt no scars, or bruises, and no wire hangers. I was wrong now I know that they get hair, make up, and air brushing.

I am glad that I can say I'm glad that I know now what I did not know then.

I may not have been nurtured or loved, shit and I'm not looking to be now. What I really want is to share my Jaded perspective creatively with the masses, sorta like a famous person.

So as I dismount my soap boxI must say this; NEVER ENVY ANY ONE!!!! No matter hoe perfect they may be able to look for a photograph or what ever limited exposer, they are human. The make up comes off, the Hair extensions come out, and they are probably hungry.

Shoes shoes shoes

There comes a time in a persons life that you realize that the things you wear should stand the test of time . For me if I buy a pair of shoes not only do they need to last until I get out of grad school but they should be sensible, stylish, and depending on the season serve a purpose.
I live in the bay area a place with the most moody weather ever, so when it rains it gets ridiculously wet.
These are the shoes at the top of my log list of shit to get (which means I'm going to have some one get them for me)
Vintage DR MATENS not only will they keep my feat warm and cozy but dry and looking damn good!

THe KOOKS are Cute

OOH la a live performance from blogtheque un edited natural performance in a random place just because and that makes it Vary SEXY.

Peggy Who

If you haven't noticed there is allot of interesting music echoing from the UK right now. For me It started with Amy Winehouse, Lily Allen, Kate Nash, Adelle, Bloc Party, and so on and so on. Well to add on to that list have a listen to Peggy Sue. This is their contribution to the indie ghetto movement (WWW.MYSPACE.COM/INDIEGHETTO ) Hip-Hop covers by indie artist.

Here is a video of them doing a cover of a 90's Missy Elliot's Why you all in my grill.

If you aren't sold by this acoustic performance look up there NYLON MAG interview that should change your mind.
Check out their myspace: http://www.myspace.com/peggysueandthepirates